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About Me Member Deviously Deviant WitmixerFemale/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 7 Months
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Where is she?

Wed Oct 21, 2009, 3:17 PM
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: john on mahjong
  • Reading: what i write.
  • Watching: nothing at the moment
  • Playing: with my last nerve.
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: tea
you always have one child that no matter what life throws at you they are there. in my case, it is my oldest. she has always been and will always be my stabilizing bar. i thought of writting a poem about her, but honestly can't put into words years of leaning on her. maybe it should be a poem of apology. i don't know. i just know that every child has a special place in your life to fill. well actually that they do fill.. maybe it is not even a place they want to be. (as my son has shown) but this one i just can't bear not hearing from her. it breaks my heart.

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I have a moderately retarded son. He is now 35 years old. Of course, he is still at home. There are good days and bad days. What am I here for? I guess at some point everyone wants friends. Not really been an option that I have capitialized on over the years. I guess over the years I have used him as a shield. Under the guise of protecting him, I have kept the world at bay. This typically is easy to do and so he became my crutch too. There comes a time when you open your eyes and see what you have missed. How purely selfish that decision now seems. I was not protecting him, but myself from rejection. I have no ability to title anything I write. I resort to thinking of the comprehension tests and seeking to choose from a mutiple choice situation. Over the years, I have written many poems and some have been lost. I do not feel I am talented, but would like to preserve what remains for my children.

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  • Favourite gaming platform: Nintendo W
  • Favourite cartoon character: Tinkerbell, Tweety
  • Personal Quote: "But I have promises to keep, and miles to go before I sleep, and miles to go before I sleep.&a
  • Tools of the Trade: household appliances

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